I’ve always been a chunky kid. All of my life I was in between…Not exactly fat but not skinny by any means. During my junior year in high school, I shot up over the 200’s. I ate fast food several times during the week, I would binge throughout the night, and it just seemed like my eating habits were spiraling out of control.
I noticed that when it comes to being severely overweight, the thing that brings most people down, is the obliviousness of it. You learn to live in sort of a glorified denial, and it’s hard for you to realize how much different you look. When you see yourself everyday in the mirror, it’s easy to be ignorant to the fact that you’ve put on so much weight. That’s exactly what happened to me. I subconsciously knew that my weight was out of control, but there were ways I could convince myself that it was alright. Until finally after having to grab a size 17 pair of jeans at Sears, I knew I had to do something about it.
I remember days where I couldn’t even go one day eating 1,700 calories. It seemed unfathomable to me. I just had this all or nothing mindset where I had to eat everything in sight or nothing at all. I was the epitome of food addiction, and I felt like there was no way out, so I just had to accept myself for being big. I finally told myself that I might as well make small changes. Even if I didn’t lose weight, I still would be moving forward and not backwards.
I started by making very small but healthier choices when I went to fast food places. Instead of ordering a large coke, I’d have a diet one instead, that right there is 300 calories you’re saving yourself.
The next small change I made, was NOT buying any trigger foods of mine at the grocery store. If I know I pig out on potatoes and cheeseburgers, then there’s no reason why I should sabotage myself by keeping them in the house. If you surround yourself with healthy choices, then you have no way of binging on the foods that trigger you…So you probably won’t binge at all.
After the first 2 weeks, I lost 10 pounds! Of course a lot of it was water weight, but it was still enough to encourage me to move forward. Once you lose the first 10, you don’t want to gain any of it back. Once I saw that weight loss, I decided to make some bigger changes. I started eating 1,500 calories per day, and I stopped eating after 7 (Which is when I would usually binge, so this helped a great deal). I know when you think of eating 1,500 calories per day, a big voice in your head screams, “UGHHHH, that is NOT enough for me.” However, I promise you, it is! I still eat what I want, when I want to. I just eat in moderation. Depriving yourself of the foods you love NEVER works. So it’s best to not limit yourself.
Support was also a huge factor in my weight loss. I have so many people still routing for me and asking me about my weight loss and how my journey to health is going! This makes me want to move forward and gives me that extra kick when I’m down. A support system is always necessary when trying to lose weight. Some good sites are SparkPeople.com, Fitday.com, or you could even create a blog and gain followers through doing so!
Last but not least, one of the things that helped me lose so much weight, is weighing myself daily! Many people advise against this, for there is a risk of obtaining some obsessive habits, but it helps you face reality every time you step onto it. Scales do not lie to us. Mirrors do not lie to us. We lie to ourselves, and we could be using that time instead to be bringing ourselves towards a healthier lifestyle. Dr. Oz even states that women who weigh themselves on a daily basis are more likely to lose weight. Incorporating this with my daily routine has let me know where I am every morning, and how my day should go about. Please keep in mind, however, that bodily functions can often heighten your weigh ins. So try not to solely rely on the number that comes up.
Losing weight isn’t easy by any means, but it doesn’t HAVE to be hard. The biggest part of everything is battling the ‘all or nothing’ mindset. It is never too late to turn the day around, and it is never too late to get back on track. It’s a long process to change the way you think and behave, but with practice and support you will get there. Just like I did!