This evening I have plans to face my current worse fear: I am going to go visit a Beloved Friend’s mom in the hospital. In spite of an intense fear based on an actual Experience, this Grandmother to 3 of my current god-children requires a visit from Me. Not because She has asked it, but because I Belive in Living the Example. So that I may adequately prepare, I intended to play mindless games with my internet friends, spreading cheer and Positive Thinking, creating my own aura of Serenity for the battle ahead.
Apparently that was not in God’s Plans.
As I Understand it, people are “crazy” or “delusional” if they notice that, during moments of intense Emotion, some kind of electrical anomaly is noticed. So let’s pretend to not notice that, the first two times the electricity blinked in my house this morning, I wasn’t upset about what I was working on. The third time it happened as I was working on a basic research paper, I COULD have gotten very emotional, but I definitely was NOT before it happened. Instead of getting emotional (angry) about it this time, I decided to WALK AWAY!
From where I sit, I have a rather lovely view, especially for being in the city the way we are. As I had been re-booting my computer this morning I was noticing that the tree in our front yard is beginning to look like it has chicken pox, and the lovely yellow tree just in the distance was beginning to curl up it’s colorful display. Instead of lamenting over the lost landscape, or getting angry over the computer, I decided I’d try taking a walk. It’s a spectacular Autumn day in the city, and all seems quiet in the neighborhood I have avoided these past months. It seemed a good day to leave traumatic events to their past.
Having recently done the Twist with a soda pop bottle, I wasn’t up for a long excursion, but it was still quite lovely and relaxing. I didn’t feel like exerting myself on the computer once more, so there I sat in the garage enjoying the Peace of the moment.
When suddenly I head a terrible aluminum clang! My neighbor’s, being as old and sweet as Grandma Vi, are something of a concern for me, so I jumped up with more speed than I should have been capable of, and witnessed the end of His fall off the ladder. My Grandpa broke his arm almost a year before he died, taking care of silly matters around the house, that He KNEW better that to do, especially alone! It was probably the single most graceless moments of My life, but I got over that fence and to Him before He had done much but try to raise His head.
How I managed to convince Him to stay flat, holler for Her as she was starting up the vacuum, and make the 911 call, had nothing to do with Me. She did not react well, and having just celebrated 66 years of marriage, it is no wonder She was afraid to lose Him! I sent Her straight to make phone calls and discussed how important it was to give Her something to DO besides worry, just like putting on the kettle when babies are coming. Funny how people find the coming of babies and the calming of others, so soothing in the scariest of moments. I assessed while we chatted and was able to reassure Her that most of what was being done was likely precautions not necessities.
Have You ever NEEDED to be two places at once? He has Dementia and should have had someone with Him. She was a wreck and unable to reach anyone in the Family. I am not supposed to drive. I asked Her if she wanted to go with Him or for me to drive Her. She didn’t even Understand that they were taking Him to the hospital.
Before I go any further, Her Brother came to take Her to the hospital, where they are now. She was doing much better by the time they left me, and I do think they will find Him cracking jokes with the nurses. I have no clue how this part of the Story ends, but I am sure it will be Well.
The thing I want to point out, is what Others may call “coincidence”. I can ONLY call it that, if I Choose to use “Coincidence” as anOther Name for God, like Jehovah or Allah. But that would only confuse people because I see this as Proof of Devine Intervention.
Maybe You have to Understand that, in Choosing to go outside instead of getting upset about the computer, I went AGAINST MY NATURE. I am a “three strikes and you’re out” kind of person: I will not ask more than three times for something, I will not allow a place of business my patronage after a third unpleasurable experience, and, the third time some or thing elicits the same Emotional Response, I am likely unable to contain it. And I am HIGHLY Emotional, so not only is the inclination to control it foreign, these are usually released with great intensity.
But I Chose not to for Some Reason, and was therefore Driven Outside.
Driven Outside where I was the ONLY ONE who Heard, Saw or could DO anything about that accident.
Because of my highly Emotional Being, I Understood Her frightened State, and could Respond to Her with words of comfort and FAITH that allowed Her to put HerSelf back in order. Yah-SHEW-wheh. GOD IS HERE. NOW. In THIS moment.